I had thought I believed in God, but perhaps what I merely believed in was my arrogance and the words of a bishop who sought only his own personal gain. I started putting words into the mouth of God; I justified my actions as the will of God Himself.

Yes. Not many are given such a chance and sometimes I wonder why God saw fit to preserve my soul, as corrupted and sinful it was and still is. But it is His grace and mercy, and I shall not disappoint Him nor my beloved a second time.